Circadian Disruption

Sat, 09 Jul 2022 15:08:18 GMT

My body clock is completely out of whack. I am wondering how much my rumination and interest in Wimbledon 2022 is responsible for it. I stayed up checking scores or when I didn't consciously stay up, it was still running at the back of my head. Perhaps it is turning into another addiction, the watching and following of the sport.

I have been through these phases in the past where I pick up an interest and it consumes my life so much that I forget to do the basic things like eat, drink, sleep and well cook, shower and so on.

And then eventually I completely pull back, lose track and wonder why I stopped doing that thing I enjoyed. Because the moderation of it slips away from me and then the memory of that slips away too.

I can say that this year's interest in tennis is largely prompted by Nadal and Serena, curiosity about what would happen. Women's tennis in general seems pretty boring and dismal. I guess I am interested in the inspiring stories of human effort to persevere.

As I watch women's final now, it doesn't seem to be going the way I want it to. And then there's my abdominal pain from surgery. Perhaps the tennis has been a distraction from it too, a reason, motivator to get me moving and out of bed even if it is late at night.

Tomorrow, I pre-scheduled to get some breakfast just before 9 am. I wonder if this time it would get delivered, the last two times it didn't. Still I have no other hope of being able to get out of bed early, which I somehow need to get to if I want to have any chance of getting back to work from Monday.

I also feel much happier when I am awake early and am able to eat breakfast, see the sunshine (when Sydney is fortunate enough to have it this year). I hope I can get to a sleep + wake up schedule of a diurnal being again.

PS - Wimbledon women's final has gone away from Jabeur :(
Oh well, there will be a next time!

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Circadian Disruption