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Ageing with Kate Winslet
Jul. 8th, 2022 11:09 pm As I near the end of week 4 since having surgery and week 3 of being home alone, I find myself listening to Kate Winslet's longer interviews from different time frames and forums. In expressing herself, I find she is helping me let go of some of my learned hangups about myself. E.g. she talks about how her body has changed through growing older and having three children and how she refuses to do cosmetic surgery or botox and is proud of being able to use her body as it is to portray her character in Ammonite.
After listening to that, I find myself not resenting the lines on my face so much. A voice of doubt comes to me with, oh but she has a husband and three children and who will find me attractive with my ageing qualities on display... and I find myself not listening to this voice, I find myself being drawn to find me within myself, within my body. It's amazing to me how a public personality could do this for me by sharing of themselves. In a way, I feel challenged by not being able to tell them of how they are affecting my life. I feel perplexed about where to take this feeling and so I had the good sense to bring it to my journal. Today I don't feel like sharing this with anyone else in a conversation, it is just me and my diary that are to be privy to this.
In the last 2 months, I have started to grow out my gray roots and stopped dyeing my hair. As I was heading into surgery, it was one of my big worries. A bad hair day makes for a bad mood day for me. Luckily, I was introduced to the gray hair transition community of people on social media and seeing so many pictures, reading so many experiences, I felt it was the right time to do this. I have been roughly out of work meetings for a month and I will likely be working from home for the rest of this month, gives me time to strengthen myself for the looks I may get for the change that has befallen me.
I feel so good about not exposing myself to the chemicals in the dye every few weeks and to one day have been free of this 4-weekly obligation. With the covid situation blowing up again in Australia, I am definitely staying away from a hairdresser for the next foreseeable future. There are all kinds of other viruses going around that I do not want to catch - the flu, RSV and of course coronavirus.
After listening to that, I find myself not resenting the lines on my face so much. A voice of doubt comes to me with, oh but she has a husband and three children and who will find me attractive with my ageing qualities on display... and I find myself not listening to this voice, I find myself being drawn to find me within myself, within my body. It's amazing to me how a public personality could do this for me by sharing of themselves. In a way, I feel challenged by not being able to tell them of how they are affecting my life. I feel perplexed about where to take this feeling and so I had the good sense to bring it to my journal. Today I don't feel like sharing this with anyone else in a conversation, it is just me and my diary that are to be privy to this.
In the last 2 months, I have started to grow out my gray roots and stopped dyeing my hair. As I was heading into surgery, it was one of my big worries. A bad hair day makes for a bad mood day for me. Luckily, I was introduced to the gray hair transition community of people on social media and seeing so many pictures, reading so many experiences, I felt it was the right time to do this. I have been roughly out of work meetings for a month and I will likely be working from home for the rest of this month, gives me time to strengthen myself for the looks I may get for the change that has befallen me.
I feel so good about not exposing myself to the chemicals in the dye every few weeks and to one day have been free of this 4-weekly obligation. With the covid situation blowing up again in Australia, I am definitely staying away from a hairdresser for the next foreseeable future. There are all kinds of other viruses going around that I do not want to catch - the flu, RSV and of course coronavirus.
I better put this on my to-do list:
1. Ask my doctor about antiviral therapy for covid at my next appointment
2. Organize vaccination for Booster-X when I am all recovered
3. Organize covid booster vax and all the side treatments to help me get through it
