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Challenges with writing
Feb. 6th, 2022 03:33 amIt has been a long while since I wrote here. I guess my vacation ended and it has taken me a long while to start to find my marbles and find some sort of rhythm and capacity to do "life". It doesn't help that this website doesn't have a mobile site or mobile app. I often myself in bed wanting to write but far away from my computer that I can't be bothered to open and type on.
Wish there was an easier way.
I think another challenge is that my brain wants me to keep my thoughts and emotions hidden rather than write about them. At first I suspected it was about keeping my feelings private, not wanting to share of my inner journey on a public journal. However, I could avoid doing that but simply making an entry private. Perhaps it is the not wanting to make the effort to process my feelings and witness and acknowledge them, somehow if I write about them then I can no longer deny or suppress them, also can avoid feeling shame for my feelings and quirks, that I initiated as defects.
Now that I've acknowledged that, I need to work out a way to write when I'm in bed because that's really what I want to do. Let's see how I can find a way that doesn't feel incredibly tedious.
PS - notes to self - write about Batman, about my family mountainy a campaign to renew the configuration, crime and punishment TV shows to babe a few
Wish there was an easier way.
I think another challenge is that my brain wants me to keep my thoughts and emotions hidden rather than write about them. At first I suspected it was about keeping my feelings private, not wanting to share of my inner journey on a public journal. However, I could avoid doing that but simply making an entry private. Perhaps it is the not wanting to make the effort to process my feelings and witness and acknowledge them, somehow if I write about them then I can no longer deny or suppress them, also can avoid feeling shame for my feelings and quirks, that I initiated as defects.
Now that I've acknowledged that, I need to work out a way to write when I'm in bed because that's really what I want to do. Let's see how I can find a way that doesn't feel incredibly tedious.
PS - notes to self - write about Batman, about my family mountainy a campaign to renew the configuration, crime and punishment TV shows to babe a few
