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End of Despair
Feb. 11th, 2022 09:24 pm I've had an incredibly rough week and still it continues. For more than 20 years, I've suffered from menstrual problems. From being suicidal during PMS to fainting on the street because of severe pain.
This whole week was another episode in this saga. Extreme fatigue, nausea, feeling anxious, unsafe and then followed by two days of debilitating period pain.
I feel angry that the medical science does not have a practical solution for me. I feel like I am at the edge of despair. It is intolerable to live this way and yet I feel like I have no options. It goes about in circles, trying to heal myself and then getting back to square one.
Nothing seems to have stuck so far.
Obviously the thread that binds all this together is severe complex trauma. I don't know how I will get through this. Every month feels like terror, waiting for the next month.
This whole week was another episode in this saga. Extreme fatigue, nausea, feeling anxious, unsafe and then followed by two days of debilitating period pain.
I feel angry that the medical science does not have a practical solution for me. I feel like I am at the edge of despair. It is intolerable to live this way and yet I feel like I have no options. It goes about in circles, trying to heal myself and then getting back to square one.
Nothing seems to have stuck so far.
Obviously the thread that binds all this together is severe complex trauma. I don't know how I will get through this. Every month feels like terror, waiting for the next month.
