AYWUAS #1 - Roadblocks
Dec. 10th, 2021 12:40 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
popcorn09The lesson says, "When you discover something that is standing in your way from achieving your goals, you always have a choice. You can either stop and avoid the challenge, or you can find a way to climb that wall. And if you can't climb it, you can do everything in y our power to go around it, dig under it, or maybe even plow right through. (...) You create your future by committing to it and taking that first step into the unknown."
When I ponder on this, lately my desire and motivation to climb walls seems to be different. I am finding that I don't have much interest in scaling walls, rather my journey needs to be more aligned at the moment. Instead of scaling any walls or trying to dig through them, I walk away from the wall and find that there was a garden, a stream, butterflies and rainbows that were calling upon me but I was too busy digging underneath or grappling with a wall that wasn't of my choosing.
So what are the roadblocks on my self-discovery writing journey?
One is definitely the fact that I get called to write late at night but this doesn't align well with a healthy adult lifestyle, my early-starting work day and my rest-needing/craving body. And yet when I write here now, it feels like home and it feels like rest. So perhaps the biggest roadblock was not having a place where I wanted to write.
And that roadblock has been resolved today. I realised that I had been on Livejournal for 8 years. No wonder it felt like the place I was looking for. I am so grateful to this site that brought back that experience and vibe into my life.
Now it doesn't matter whether I write everyday, every week or all the time. But I have a place to go write that feels like home, when I get called to.
So roadblocks that will prevent me from doing this - nothing comes to mind right now. And if I do find a wall, I will just turn around and who knows I might discover yet another glorious green garden instead.
When I ponder on this, lately my desire and motivation to climb walls seems to be different. I am finding that I don't have much interest in scaling walls, rather my journey needs to be more aligned at the moment. Instead of scaling any walls or trying to dig through them, I walk away from the wall and find that there was a garden, a stream, butterflies and rainbows that were calling upon me but I was too busy digging underneath or grappling with a wall that wasn't of my choosing.
So what are the roadblocks on my self-discovery writing journey?
One is definitely the fact that I get called to write late at night but this doesn't align well with a healthy adult lifestyle, my early-starting work day and my rest-needing/craving body. And yet when I write here now, it feels like home and it feels like rest. So perhaps the biggest roadblock was not having a place where I wanted to write.
And that roadblock has been resolved today. I realised that I had been on Livejournal for 8 years. No wonder it felt like the place I was looking for. I am so grateful to this site that brought back that experience and vibe into my life.
Now it doesn't matter whether I write everyday, every week or all the time. But I have a place to go write that feels like home, when I get called to.
So roadblocks that will prevent me from doing this - nothing comes to mind right now. And if I do find a wall, I will just turn around and who knows I might discover yet another glorious green garden instead.
