AYWUAS #1 - Roadblocks

[popcorn09]

The lesson says, "When you discover something that is standing in your way from achieving your goals, you always have a choice. You can either stop and avoid the challenge, or you can find a way to climb that wall. And if you can't climb it, you can do everything in y our power to go around it, dig under it, or maybe even plow right through. (...) You create your future by committing to it and taking that first step into the unknown."

When I ponder on this, lately my desire and motivation to climb walls seems to be different. I am finding that I don't have much interest in scaling walls, rather my journey needs to be more aligned at the moment. Instead of scaling any walls or trying to dig through them, I walk away from the wall and find that there was a garden, a stream, butterflies and rainbows that were calling upon me but I was too busy digging underneath or grappling with a wall that wasn't of my choosing.

So what are the roadblocks on my self-discovery writing journey? 

One is definitely the fact that I get called to write late at night but this doesn't align well with a healthy adult lifestyle, my early-starting work day and my rest-needing/craving body. And yet when I write here now, it feels like home and it feels like rest. So perhaps the biggest roadblock was not having a place where I wanted to write.

And that roadblock has been resolved today. I realised that I had been on Livejournal for 8 years. No wonder it felt like the place I was looking for. I am so grateful to this site that brought back that experience and vibe into my life. 

Now it doesn't matter whether I write everyday, every week or all the time. But I have a place to go write that feels like home, when I get called to.

So roadblocks that will prevent me from doing this - nothing comes to mind right now. And if I do find a wall, I will just turn around and who knows I might discover yet another glorious green garden instead.

Comments

[daryl_wor]

Hi, hope my writing a reply isn't alarming. I saw your thank you the in DW comments about December points and your mention of LV got me very curious. I found DW in 2017 when I looked at LV again and became so disappointed about the changes. Someone there mentioned DW and I very happily began. (My hope was to find the social media LV once had been and it looks like DW was invented to be just that.)

I really enjoyed this entry about wall climbing and then realising there is something much more attractive and healthy away from the wall! I like the idea because I've been through years of silly rationalising towards me about commercial social media and how it just needs to be used "a certain way" as if it's a mandatory schooling system and we have no choice about it. Very overwhelming and rather nonsensical. So I admire this view of not needing to climb the wall at all.

I also found alternative schools and education through pen pals because my schools had been so terrible. Same vibe, I guess. No need to climb this wall, eh? There are other choices in other directions! :)

Thank you for the first comment on my journal!

[popcorn09]

Your reply isn't alarming at all daryl_wor. Thank you so much for sharing how my post resonated for you. This is exactly the community-feeling I miss from my days of writing on Livejournal.

I'd love to read more about your struggles with social media and where you have arrived at in your relationship with it now.

Yes, I believe I always have a choice. Sometimes it can take a lot for me to discover that I do and at other times it could seem like there are no choices, and then it can take a lot for me to generate or create our own options.

This is my constant struggle.

Thank you for your comment. I am going to "friend" you, I dislike how the term has changed since the advent of Facebook. I mean I would like to follow your journal and invite you to reciprocate if you so choose.

Re: Thank you for the first comment on my journal!

[daryl_wor]

Oh goodie! Well the term here is "subscribe". However the word "friend" as a verb isn't all that accurate. If you recall, and I believe you may, the old term "befriend", remember? ^_^ I finally did a few years ago and thought, "Oh, yeh! It's BE-friend, the verb, not friend-as-a-verb..." and truly, how can a communication tool, that FB claims to be, have created within us the need to invent an awful word such as "un-friend"? It doesn't exactly promote connectivity to create a word such as un-friend... However, parting-ways is the old version of that one, but befriend is the one for connection.

I was going to subscribe earlier, but I didn't want to seem too "fresh" as the old cartoons express.